Taking chances

Have you ever been one of those types of people that just sits in the stream and lets the current take you where ever it wants?Do you plan out youre life,day by day.Trying to be what society in general actually wants you to be.

Ive spent pretty much my whole life,being "safe".Only going out when i know i have enough money for the rest of the month,Sitting at home because I didnt want to travel far because the roads would be wet.Not wanting a big change in my life,because I felt "comfortable".

Recently I realised that im getting on in years...22 to be exact.And i have nothing to show for it.Well nothing out of the ordinary,I have a car.I have a job,girlfriend and so forth.But this isnt what i wanted to be when I was a little kid.I wanted to be a pilot.Jockey, marine, fireman.You know typical kid things.I stuck to computers cause i knew(and still know) what i was doing.I always had that little cushion to fall back on.Something solid under my feet.

I WANT A CHANGE! Hence the planned move to CT.I wanna be someplace that is new, some place different, Ill still stick to my current proffession,Being an IT nerd.Mainly cause us nerds dont like change.You cant scare us like that.Our pens leak,calculators go flat,stuff like that.Really scary.

Ive never really been the one that wanted to move to another country,I geuss that a part of me still wants to know that there is a safety net under me.Something that will catch me when I fall,Cause i sure as hell know thats going to happen.But the main thing i have going for me is im still young.I wont be able to do stuff like this when im 35 and have 2.4kids.Its going to be hard enough transporting my baby veloria(anaconda) down.Yes she is only a snakling(???) but still its a far drive.

I wanna be able to walk into my own place.Say hey..that tv over there....My mommy gave me that at a good price(hint hint mother) that bed,well i found that on a rubbish dump.Those chairs...They are from the neighbours garden.You know,Independence.I need that. Before i have to much on my plate.

It seems that people are always taking chances,I cant tell you how many of my friends just started their lives with nothing and are more than happy with the results.It seems like a semi fool proof plan.Something that just cant go wrong....But it might.Thats one of the things that scares me.

You see im a real mamma's boy.I need to know that if i had to phone her,She'd be there.Its torture knowing that she is in another country,even though at 6in the morning she'd be the first one thru the border if i needed her.

AAARRG im going all soppy with these bladdy blogs.Damn you Jeremy why did i listen to you!why!

Well thats another pointless waste of time.Sorry about it being late.But ja...hectice schedule..